Keep discovering yourself…………….

When you reach an age or time, when you believe you have been successful and completed your journey in this life, what do you do then? These are among many questions, I am struggling to find answers to these days. Having come to my son’s place in Dubai about 6 months back, I have been thinking whether I should make this place as my base going forward? Moment I think of that, several issues come to mind. If I start living in Dubai, then my life, my story, my eco-system of 40+ years of my professional journey, my companies, my equity built over so many years, resulting to a position of eminence, all will go away. Not to speak of my friends, my emotional relationships, my innovations, my projects, my business, social life et al. Why should I do that, at this stage of my life? Yes, it may give me a lifestyle, an element of upmarket ambience, more than what I found in India, but is that all I need? At times, it does become difficult to think through, why on earth then, I want to move out of my motherland? Surely not for money, or, is it? One doesn’t seem to find a strong compelling answer.
Then you start thinking, is there something in your own country, bothering you? Is there anything which makes you feel that you want to be away, from the dirty environment and live in a place devoid of any such things? Can’t you find a place in your own motherland for that?
I have always loved nature. As I travelled in my life, both internally and externally, I was attracted hugely to nature’s travel path. There is no negative energy there, though soft clouds do have to fight the blockades of hills and mountains, but they do it very gracefully. They have shown me the way, how one can still travel and grow, even if they are obstructed. So, that drew me closer and closer to self-discovery. That took me away from all the negative energies I have confronted in my work life or social life, and made me reach a comfort level, with my own true self. I continuously seek this comfort level, within me, which doesn’t obstruct, yet stimulates my brain to think beyond life.
Initially, when I started this journey, I did a mistake because of my emotional attachments. I wanted to take along with me a few, with whom, I intellectually related and enjoyed company and shared my thoughts. That was not to happen. I had never anticipated that. So, when I was refused, I felt how can this happen? This pull which I feel, is so strong, why should anyone have a problem in this journey. But I was wrong. I stumbled but did not fall. I picked myself up and slowly re-started my journey, in the hope, that someday, things will change and people will understand me better.
The desire, the hunger and the journey is all within and the mind accepts, compromises, or determined to find its route to travel. It’s been beautiful so far. It’s really not so important, where I live anymore, I am anyway living with the clouds. It’s a process of never-ending self-discovery, which I am going through. Come and join me, if you wish to.